I just celebrated my first birthday, and it was the most warm, wonderful, fulfilling birthday week I've ever had. I love OA, and taking chips and candles! Both of my sponsors got me cards, and one even gave me a present! One other meeting sent a card around the room, and everyone signed it. I haven't thrown a party for myself since i was 12, but at the last minute, i invited everyone at the meeting this morning to a birthday pool party. Only 3 could make it, but it was perfect. I'm gonna actually plan ahead next time, and have a real party. Before my birthday, i was feeling pretty isolated, and really bogged down. I made a list of things i had on my mind that needed to be processed, and here is the list...my goal is to journal on one each day until my mind is clear of worry. I expect to be adding to the list as i go, so it may never be completely gone. I'm sure it will come and go...ebb and flow...like everything else. but here it is : )
married friend
taking advantage of friends
neglecting/procrastinating on return phone calls
x this freakin' dog
granola bars
x hgh
nutritionist
toughness/stupidity-hurting myself
clearer abstinence?
jealous of mom
more productive schedule
secrets/isolation from coworkers
new job possibilities
x disability
new home
new transportation
body image: delusion vs accepdance
have i done permanant harm? will i ever be the same?
